Whoeps?

Whoeps! Was my last post really in August? Ahum...sorry 'bout that.
I've been busy with work, my other blog and thinking about how I should make the magic work for me, but I mean really work. They say in Wonderland: if you ask for help you will get it.

So I've been wishing to the moon that someone would help me on my way, and tadaa! Rescue came! A friend of a colleague of mine suddenly appeared to be a witch, a real one. So after sending her an e-mail, I'm now entering a witchschool in January.
I feel as if I'm going to Hogwarts school of magics!

Furthermore I bought a lot of books to have more knowledge about things and I'm still doing my Tarot. It is going very well! I've done 6 drawings till now, and all 6 persons are astonished about it. I seem to be very very accurate and correct in my forecasts. Is that cool or what? Maybe I have a gift after all! Someone is even coming to my house to have her drawing done...this is bizarre!

Tarot Tears & Fears

I discovered somehting: I don't like doing Tarot for people who stand to close to me. I did a drawing for my boyfriend, to help him make up his mind. But during the drawing, that he did not ask for b.t.w., I discovered some disturbing things. He would have a painfull "goodbye"... I freaked out completely, thinking that he would leave me. Completely ridiculous off course.

So after one hour of hysterical cries, I decided that I will not do drawings for people standing to close to me. And I think that he is the only one standing to close :) Haha! Maybe it's best if next time he asks me to do one...

Oh Mi Oh My!

Oh my! My Tarot is doing very well, i've could have been rich if I charged money for all my drawings! No, that's a joke. But I have done 3 drawings now, one for my collegue (see below), one for my sister and one for my best friend. That last one was face-2-face and that's really hard because you have to interpret the cards immediatly. Normally I write everything down first and then interpret them (and them put it on mail)... I'm a busy bee, another friend of mine asked me to do her cards and now my boyfriend seems to be very interested to suddenly. Haha!

Futheron I met someone who is a witch, she really wants to help me on my way. Remember what I said? Someone will be my helper soon, and I found her. Well let's hope so...

Take a Look in My Future

Don't think that I have been sitting still all this time you didn't hear from me! I actually helped people this week. A friend of mine had a job interview on tuesday, she asked me to give her some advice about what to wear. After a quick glance in one of my books, I told her to wear something red (the color of tuesday) and something yellow (the numerological colour of her appointment). When I asked her afterwards how it went, she told me they made her sweat but she is hopefull. On friday we will now more, because they will call her then. I'm curious if my little magic tips worked!

I have been telling people that I do Tarot, I carefully pick them because I don't want everybody to know. I'm afraid they'll laugh at me.
What's funny about this is that every person I tell, asks me to do a drawing for them. Untill now, I have only done drawings for myself, but when my very pregnant collegue asked me to take a look at her cards I couldn't refuse. She wanted to know when her baby will be born, before or after the estimated date.
So yesterday I layed my cards out and studied them. It was incredible how much information was hidden, I wrote everything out for her in an email, including my conclusion: the baby will be born before the estimated date. And I asked her to react at the things that I read in the cards.
After nervously checking my e-mail every hour today, she replied me: She was shocked, even scared about the precise and correct information I gave her. She completely recognized herself and her life in everything that I was saying. Isn't that amazing? I'm so proud of myself!
But, we have to see when her baby will be born.

So now I'm really enthousiastic! My best friend asked me to check her cards, I can't waite to try again!

Let the Tarot Speak

I just did my first real Tarot drawing! I used a Celtic Cross to know a bit more about my near future. Althougt it was difficult to interprete them I succeeded to unlock a litle bit of their secrets and I am astoned! Almost everything was either true or very recognizable! Incredible, I can't wait untill I understand the cards completely and do a real drawing for someone!

What else in becoming a witch? Mmm my intuition is still very strong, but I'm not succeeding at trusting it yet. Sometimes I have these ideas that cross my mind, but its almost as if they arent mine. And always these ideas come true or happen... But I don't recogniz them yet. That's hard!

And I have been wanting to tell you something but I know that if I write this down I wont believe it myself. But...(please dont laugh) I think a saw a ghost. Or shall I say spirit. It happened one week ago, I was at the house of my boyfriends aunt. The setting was like some bad horror movie: the rain was pouring and there was thunder. We were sitting in the garden under a little roof, from there I could see into the empty dark house. Then suddenly I saw a man moving through the house, quite quick. I thaught I imagined it so I put my cup of tea to my lips to take a sip and almost immediatly lowered it, I was astonished. There a saw that man moving again. He looked like a cartoon puppet, I could not see a face but his body was as if he was drawn with white lines. But just his surroundings... Very strange, I wasn´t scared when I saw him, just shocked. But I must say, I wasn´t brave when I had to go to the bathroom later that night! I didn´t see him anymore and I haven´t seen anything like this again...

Lazy Witch!

Lazy witch, thats what I am at the moment. I am so busy working that I tend to forget about Magic. But writing this Blog makes me realise how happy Magic makes me! So I will give it some more room in my life.

Tarot is still a big issue...I-dont-understand-it. But I think that this is also part of the "dont have time for magic"-thing. Since two weeks I have been receiving online Tarot lessons but I didn't even look at them. This weekend I will take the time to read it.
My morning drawings are also a catastrophe! Doing Tarot at eight o'clock is just not my thing. But I'm scared that my cards will get mad at me for not giving them the attention that they deserve!

Do I have a new project? Nope, but I want to read a bit more about moon-Magic. And oh yeah, Tarot. Haha!

Weird Wednesday

Oh my day was really weird today. An emotional rollercoaster! I am so busy at work at the moment that I don't even have the time to think about magic!
I don't even know what the moon phase is... Had to check my blog to notice that it's almost half full! Time to make wishes!

I did have the time to finish my tarot book. That stuff is really complicated! Because I didn't have the sligtest idea where to begin with my tarot drawings, I started to do morning drawings. In the morning I shake the cards and draw 3 cards. I write them down, look up their meanings and at the end of the day I check "what happened".
But it's really hard! This morning I did my first drawing. I drew:
1.Swords of Ace .2. Swords ten .3. Cups three

My first reaction was "wooooow what a lot of swords!" And when I started reading the meanings I really lost it. I just see 3 cards where you are suppose to see a connection.
But after a long day of stress I forgot the meanings so, you will assist my first "reinterpretation" of the cards...Mmm...lets see...

Card number one has to do with intellect and making analyses.
Card number two has to do with dissapointment
Card number three has to do with love, new beginnings, finding your way back to calmness.

Ok strange, seperatly they say nothing. But all three togheter they predicted my stressfull "intellectual" day, with loss of energie in a problem that has been filling especially my work - and lovelife for a while. Card number three says not to lose energy in conflicts that tend to "drag" and to make descisions. And I think tonight we did make a descion! Oh well sort off..and no worries we are not separating. LoL!

Tell me how it works (and I'll tell your future)

As I said before, this week was so busy that I couldn't post. But finally the weekend has arrived and I can write you again.

I bought some tarot cards this week! So I'm leaving the runes aside for a while. While buying the cards, I had a funny experience. Before I went to the shop I looked up on the internet what I wanted to buy. But once in the shop, they told me the cards where sold out! What a dissapointment! Luckely the girl who helped me, offered to take a quick peek in the computer to see when new cards arrived.
Suddenly, while I was waiting at the desk, she dook under the desk and revealed the deck of cards that I wanted. Appareantly they kept this deck aside for a customer, but he never picked them up. So now...they were mine!
This was sooo strange! I didn't have to think twice and bought them immediatly!

Something else occurd when I wanted to pay the cards. The girl behind the register looked at me with regcognition in her eyes. And I regcognized here too. But I have never seen her before in my life. So, call me crazy, but I think she was a witch and that she saw that I was too. But ,off course, officially I'm not a witch yet...

Well, I'm going to explore the wonderous world of Tarot, I'll keep you updated!

Green Sunday?

Yesterday I had a feeling that my private dancing lesson would be cancelled. And off course this morning the phone rang, way to early may I say! 10 o'clock on a Sunday morning is not a normal time to call someone! But my point is, my lesson was cancelled... So I went to the gym to practise some pole-dancing on my own, a quick calculation made me wear green (stands for: love, healing, nature and money attracting rituals). To bad that dancing isn't a ritual, I would be rich by now!

I think that I should read some book about colour-magic, because I'm quite bad at it.
But, I'm not bad at everything! I think that I have had enough prove in the last few days, to trust my "gut" feelings a bit more. Because very often I am right.

I hope that in the next few days I will find the time to write because I won't be at home. So if you don't hear from me, don't panic, I didn't get lost in Magic...

P.s. I'm going to have Tarot lessons! But I need a deck, so I'm going to buy a Rider Waite Deck on Tuesday! Hurray!

Silver Saturday

Oh I'm really not good at this colour-magic thing! What did I wear all day: Pink...which stands for making amends, family and children.
Mmm the only thing that wearing pink brought me is sex, but I'm not complaining! haha!
Maybe the problem lies in the fact that I don't have clothes in all the colours of the rainbow. So maybe I should go shopping before I do a new attempt at colour-magic. Or I could buy candles in many different colours? Although that is not very practical for appointments that ask for a specific colour. Do you see me burning a red candle while talking to my manager??

Another option is to buy precious stones...This magic is going to ruin me.
Tomorrow I will wear violet...again... for my dancing lesson...last attempt for now.

Violet Vriday :)

Well I wouldn't really want to call this Violet Friday...*Dharma takes a quick look at her outfit and stares at her violet socks*...
So did anything magical happen? No, I wasn't harmonious or spiritual at all! I was com-ple-te-ly stressed out! Stop nodding your head, I will buy something violet tomorrow!
Today I had a lot of work and also had to run to the hospital...

But let's not let us hang our heads down immediately! Maybe some spirituals things did happen!
1) yesterday I was thinking about some magazine that my grandmother used to read, it's called "Kampioen". She used to give them to me to read. And what was in the mailbox this evening? A Kampioen. Apparently my father in law has a subscription since a short while...
2) We were going to eat at a Greek restaurant tonight, but I had a feeling that my boyfriend (who was late) went to the grocery store to buy a meal for tonight because I had the feeling that he didn't want to go out. And I was right...He was there, buying ingredients...

Tomorrow it's silver day! Let's give it another try!

Indigo Thursday

Well today was my first day of trying to make colormagic work for me!
Today I wore indigo, because this was the best colour to wear. Today it's 26-06-2008, so that's 2+6+0+6+2+0+0+8=24=2+4=6=indigo.
Indigo stands for: psychic development, spirituality and inner harmony. Exciting isn't it? Now you must wonder if something happened...

...I couldn't tell you, because I made a mistake. I thought some things happened, until 5 minutes ago... I thought I was wearing the right color for today and especially for my doctors appointment. But my appointment was at 13:45 hours. 2+6+0+6+2+0+0+8+1+3+4+5=37=10=1, and that stands for white: new beginnings and energy. Which I could have really used today, seeing that I'm so tired!
Conclusion: I wore the right daycolor but I the wrong one for my doctors appointment.

Still, today was a different day. My appointment went very well and making new ones too! I can even see a specialist tomorrow, normally I have to wait at least 3 weeks. Incredible.
Something else strange happened, I have been trying to find a temporary rental house for my work starting September. I knew that there were some magic "tricks" you could do to help you a bit. I didn't really do anything yet, no rituals or so. But I have been watching the moon, decreasing moon is best to "let things go" and an increasing moon is best to "attract things". So before and around full moon I wished for a house. Just that. And suddenly I had 2 calls about houses, the company has told me that I reacted to some houses and wanted to know if I was still interested. Now you wonder why this is strange...It is strange because I didn't react to any house!

My telepathic powers are getting stronger, at least I think. I was sitting to a pregnant colleague of mine when suddenly I heard her say "auw" like she was in pain. But she didn't say anything out loud. After the break she told me that her baby had moved and that sometimes it's painful. So that's what I heard in my mind...

Tomorrow it's Violet day! Uh got to look for something Violet cause I don't think I have any! (violet: same as indigo)

Color My Life

You think I forgot about magic again didn't you? Well I didn't, I just didn't have the time to read and have new experiences.
But today I read something about color-magic. In combination with some numerology you can easily calculate what your "powercolor" is. And even which colours bring you good luck in certain situations.
My powercolor is silver, this means that when I want to feel powerfull I should wear silver. This can be jewellery or clothing. The numbers in my name also tell me that a few colors are missing in my life: orange, yellow, indigo and violet. If I wear more of these, I will have more balance. Too bad that yellow and orange really don't suit me! jak! Hopefully socks also count?

But this color-magic stuff is really funny, today I had a meeting with my new manager. I quickly calculated that I should have worn Indigo to that meeting and not red, as I did! Indigo stands for strenght, justice and carreer. Red on the other hand stands for change and courage. So if my manager was a witch (don't think so haha) he would have seen in what state of mind I was. Because for me, he stands for change and I need courage to face that. Isn't that amazing?

So I made a colour-agenda! Tomorrow I should wear Indigo again, Friday Violet and Saturday I should wear Silver. But on Sunday I have an appointment, I am going to have a private dancing lesson to perfect my dancing. For this appointment I should wear Violet. But Violet stands for psychic development, spirituality and inner harmony...??? Is this going to help me to become miss pole dance 2008? Maybe, let's give it try. I will keep you posted on how my colour magic works!

By the way, next project is learning to see aura's. I really thought I saw the aura of my manager today, it was blue around his head. Curious if this means something or just that I'm completely nuts. Haha!

The Magic Enters...

I am puzzled. While exploring the different kinds of magic, today I focussed on Numeroloy.
I was quite sceptic about it, but there is something I can't explain.
I visited a website that gave me my "numerology tip of the day". I discovered that my birth number is 8 and my name number is also 8. So there is something about 8. And today it's 19-06-2008, so 1+9+0+6+2+0+0+8=26 and 2+6=8!
That is spooky! The day I discover numerology is the same as my birth- and name number?

And my tip of the day was the following:
Today you look at your best. Go outside and seek new things. There is a positive change in the air. Today you are free. Expect a pleasant surprise. Do something different. Be flexible and change your routines. Promote or advertise yourself or your products. Look at the world with other eyes. Give something away. Sell something. This is the best day for a haircut or a chirurgical appointment. Today you feel free.

Well no pleasant surprises so far (or does a goatcheese-honey tosti count?). But today I did feel better than the last few days, and I have a day off! I do look at the world differently (not dramatically but a bit), I almost built a web shop today, I am going to give some things away tonight and my dentist was very happy to see me.
Alas, I don't look at my best today and going outside to seek new things doesn't appeal to me, it's raining cats and dogs.
But isn't this strange? But if 8 is such an important number, does that mean that 2008 is "my" year? Is 8 my lucky number? Is 8-8-2008 an important date for me?

If any pleasant surprises of new things come on my way today I will let you know!

First Hurdle (Sorry Creepy Man)

Aah today was supposed to be my first step (or was this blog the first?) into my future as a witch. I went to the bookstore to buy some wicca books. But once inside, you must know that I love bookstores, I kind of got lost between the chick-lit and the fantasy books and ran out with a lot of books except the ones that I wanted. So (oh the shame) I had to go back in and check out the wicca books...

First I studied the meditation books with faked interest for half an hour because some creepy guy was watching the wicca ones.
But suddenly Susan Smit whispered in my ear, that a witch should not be ashamed of her identity and that maybe this man was my helper? I told Susan to butt off, that creepy men may not be my helpers, not only because they scare the shit out of me, but also because my boyfriend wouldn't allow creepy men in my life.
But Susan was very convincing, so I started to approach (after a deep breath of "courage") the bookshelves. Not only did the man disappear, also did my wicca books... They didn't have anyone that I wanted! No Book of shadows, no Laurie Cabot, and no Phyllis Curott. Was it magic? Maybe that man was my helper and my bad thoughts made him and my books dissapear?

I'll never know, but in the next bookstore I will listen to Susan.

My Story So Far...

When I was 17 years old, I had my first encounter with wicca, or white magic. My best friend was practising telekinesis. This triggerd my interest and soon she told me she was also interested in wicca. She lent me a book about wicca. This book described some rituals to attract whatever you want. I chose to try to attract love, this was before I went on a holiday. I wished for love and suddenly a grasshopper came into my house. You can think that this isn't special but if I tell you that I live in the middle of Amsterdam then you have to agree with me that a grasshopper is rare in a city like Amsterdam.
You may think that I'm crazy but I knew that this grasshopper was a sign.
That holiday I met my first love.

But soon wicca disappeared from my life. My boyfriend was a very religious man and till the end of our relationship there was no place for wicca in my life. Then I "met" Harry Potter. Stop laughing! He awoke the witch in me again.

A few months later I met the love of my life. Who, when he heard about my interest in wicca, took me to a bookstore and bought me 2 wicca-books for my birthday. I read them and started to do a little wicca again (drawing magic squares everywhere haha). But due to a busy life it faded away again...I forgot about wicca.

Until now. Last year I bought the book "heks" by Susan Smit. It was catching dust on my bookshelf. So past holiday, I decided to take it along and read it.
It really was an eyeopenener. I see now that I should walk, or at least try to walk, the path of the witch. Apparently other people feel that I should do it to. Why else is everybody giving me withes as a gift? My mother, my sister and even my grandfather have all given me a witch one day.

Yes, and this sounds very heavy and serious, and maybe I will even forget it again. But in wicca they believe that if you are meant to be a witch, sooner or later you will walk the path and you will meet the right people to help you. I think I have met my first helper: Susan Smit. On her website she reaches out to help other witches, I'm sure that if I dare to take the first step, others will be there to help me.